MAN UP: BREAK NO CONTACT

It just hit me. I've been lost half of my life always looking for meaning. I thought I was always happy with having my hobbies and making  art. I always thought I lived to help people but I end up disregarding myself. I was always seeking the approval of people and always worried about my image. Then I chase material things and wealth. Previously I was almost dependent on a relationship. I've had experience almost all of these but still I am lost. I feel empty. I have a good paying easy job with a steady income plus my passive income. I have all the video game consoles and cool gadgets I would need plus all my other material possessions. I got back with my beautiful ex girlfriend so what else do I need in life? Freedom. I want to be free. I want create more art while I'm still alive. I want to do and achieve more things while I'm still fairly young. I want to do a 540 hook kick. Which I cannot do if I am stuck in a 9-5 then come back home tired, unreasonab...

TO DO OR NOT TO DO? Today I got so angry at a stupid travel agent calling us travel agents gravely affecting my stats. You feel powerless no fighting chance with nonsense callers who are lazy and stupid. I've had it. So I wrote an email to our operations manager and my team lead. A love letter. My resignation letter. I haven't wrote any letter in ages. Not even to my ex-ex girl friend who'm I just got back together with not so long ago just this Valentine's. I didn't send it yet... but felt so good. It was euphoric.  I feel as light as a feather. At least for now. Writing this now I realized the callers don't know how they affect our jobs. Still how stupid is my supervisor to criticize me in public when I am the top agent here. Then again all the supervisors do not have any decency. They are all the same. The time to quit maybe isn't now. I still need 40,000 bucks to reach 100,000 bucks on my bank account. Triple digits. I...